Ima' Sneak Back Up In Here
2016. Oops. So that's only three years later. I feel like I do this a lot. Post for awhile, then get away from it, then come back and update on all the important major life events that have happened in the THREE years away.
So MAJORLY, I've had 2 children since I wrote last. Ha. Parker Rae joined us August 2014 and is my little pistol Annie and I love her for it. She's definitely taken on the middle child role since her little brother Bobby Douglas joined us (but that was only 2 weeks ago, ha!). SO, its my goal to try to keep this going. There's a lot against me, like my time and sanity, but writing gives me a peace that nothing else does.
I guess I'm feeling especially nostalgic lately. It sometimes feels like things are changing so fast and the mom guilt is killing me. Like I'm not doing enough to document every second of their lives! I post frequently on Facebook and am sometimes told that I'm not so bad at the writing thing, so I think maybe I'll take what may kind of sort of be a talent (as I'm not sure I have many) and run with it. Also, don't let this post be the standard. As we speak I have a screaming 1 year old and 2 week old and am just trying to get to the point where I can click Publish! Lol, that may be the case often though now that I think about it so maybe this is the standard?
Again I say, I'm horrible at this blogging thing. I don't know how to post pictures or videos correctly but I'm going to try to learn! As of today, I have 2 followers and until I get this thing down, I'm okay with that number! :)
Quick Updates:
Piper is 4 (5 in July!) and is in preschool. She is learning so much every day and growing into such a smart, beautiful, sassy , thoughtful little lady. She's where I get most of my laughs and I feel like the things she says and does are the things I'm going to regret not documenting the most. She's just at that "kids say the darn'dest things" stage and I always want to remember.
Parker is 18 months in a couple of days and has enough sass to fill the world. I'd like to blame it on the new baby but it was coming on strong shortly before he arrived. Maybe she sensed she wasn't going to be the baby anymore, I don't know, but man can she bring it. She'll SCREAM bloody murder at anything she doesn't like or doesn't get but the minute I say "do you want a spankin'?" or "do you want to go nigh-nigh", She instantly stops mid scream and sweetly says, "No." Like she's so innocent!
Bobby is, well a newborn soooo Eat, Poop, Sleep, Repeat. :) He is a sweetie and mom's little cuddlebug. He's not a huge fan of sleep at night, unfortunately, but we're hoping to correct that soon! His sisters love him to pieces. Almost literally for Parker. She always wants to hold him and can be a little aggressively lovey, but she means well. Piper is a natural in her big sister role, but then she's been practicing with Parker for awhile now.
People often say their "heart is full" after they have a baby, and I never felt like that expression applied to me. It seems odd, like you're saying your first, or second or whatever it may be baby or child wasn't enough, but now that the second or third or last or whatever is here, you are complete. I feel like the love I have for EACH child when they are born and from then on is all consuming, overwhelming and can never be topped or replicated, but I don't feel like my heart is ever full. There is ALWAYS room for more love. Which may be the reason I could end up with 10 kids. I can't ever imagine being done or not wanting more. Truly a blessing. A crazy one, but so worth it. :)
So MAJORLY, I've had 2 children since I wrote last. Ha. Parker Rae joined us August 2014 and is my little pistol Annie and I love her for it. She's definitely taken on the middle child role since her little brother Bobby Douglas joined us (but that was only 2 weeks ago, ha!). SO, its my goal to try to keep this going. There's a lot against me, like my time and sanity, but writing gives me a peace that nothing else does.
I guess I'm feeling especially nostalgic lately. It sometimes feels like things are changing so fast and the mom guilt is killing me. Like I'm not doing enough to document every second of their lives! I post frequently on Facebook and am sometimes told that I'm not so bad at the writing thing, so I think maybe I'll take what may kind of sort of be a talent (as I'm not sure I have many) and run with it. Also, don't let this post be the standard. As we speak I have a screaming 1 year old and 2 week old and am just trying to get to the point where I can click Publish! Lol, that may be the case often though now that I think about it so maybe this is the standard?
Again I say, I'm horrible at this blogging thing. I don't know how to post pictures or videos correctly but I'm going to try to learn! As of today, I have 2 followers and until I get this thing down, I'm okay with that number! :)
Quick Updates:
Piper is 4 (5 in July!) and is in preschool. She is learning so much every day and growing into such a smart, beautiful, sassy , thoughtful little lady. She's where I get most of my laughs and I feel like the things she says and does are the things I'm going to regret not documenting the most. She's just at that "kids say the darn'dest things" stage and I always want to remember.
Parker is 18 months in a couple of days and has enough sass to fill the world. I'd like to blame it on the new baby but it was coming on strong shortly before he arrived. Maybe she sensed she wasn't going to be the baby anymore, I don't know, but man can she bring it. She'll SCREAM bloody murder at anything she doesn't like or doesn't get but the minute I say "do you want a spankin'?" or "do you want to go nigh-nigh", She instantly stops mid scream and sweetly says, "No." Like she's so innocent!
Bobby is, well a newborn soooo Eat, Poop, Sleep, Repeat. :) He is a sweetie and mom's little cuddlebug. He's not a huge fan of sleep at night, unfortunately, but we're hoping to correct that soon! His sisters love him to pieces. Almost literally for Parker. She always wants to hold him and can be a little aggressively lovey, but she means well. Piper is a natural in her big sister role, but then she's been practicing with Parker for awhile now.
People often say their "heart is full" after they have a baby, and I never felt like that expression applied to me. It seems odd, like you're saying your first, or second or whatever it may be baby or child wasn't enough, but now that the second or third or last or whatever is here, you are complete. I feel like the love I have for EACH child when they are born and from then on is all consuming, overwhelming and can never be topped or replicated, but I don't feel like my heart is ever full. There is ALWAYS room for more love. Which may be the reason I could end up with 10 kids. I can't ever imagine being done or not wanting more. Truly a blessing. A crazy one, but so worth it. :)
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